Oh, how we avoid -- all of us. Like how I've resisted this blog for many months as life has taken so many directions unplanned. "When things settle down and I get it all figured out, I'll write again... There's too much going on... I don't have time... I don't know what to say..."
All of it: False. The Truth is, we resist what we most need to embrace.
As much as we don't want to admit it, deep down we know it's True. Resistance builds tissue, both muscle tissue and soul tissue. It stretches us beyond our comfort zone into places we would rather avoid (there's that word again). Resistance is like a mirror, showing us where we need to grow. And this runs counter to every fiber in our beings that seeks safety and predictability. We are all walking contradictions; we actually need both predictability and unpredictability in our lives to reach our potential and ultimately, deeper life satisfaction.
I have resisted "putting myself out there" because I have been in the midst of the hardest year of my life. Separation and impending divorce. Managing my emotional roller coaster while being witness to -- and on the receiving end of -- my daughter's emotional process. Making major life decisions, alone. Financial strain. Moving -- three times. Rebuilding my practice. Again. Recreating my life. Daring to dream. Learning to let go and trust.
This is what I've learned so far:
1) I'm never going to have it all figured out (this was actually a relief once I got it)
2) I CAN trust: Trust the process, Trust the Universe, Trust myself
3) Going with the flow (but not in a passive, co-dependent way) actually eliminates stress
4) Laughter IS the best medicine
5) I can do anything with the love and support of people I trust
So here's the bottom line for me now: Allow things to unfold, don't waste time trying to predict, and be in every moment as fully as possible.
